Don’t ask me how He does it. How He takes such flawed, diseased, sickly flesh and uses it as part of His beautiful love story, but He does.
My thoughts of late have encompassed so many things, and I’ve been wrestling with wanting to share and not knowing exactly what to say that wouldn’t take pages of explanation, but right now this is what’s on my heart.
What if we were real? What if we became more vulnerable with each other about our issues and hangups? How much more could the true love of Christ be shown if unbelievers or even believers just struggling with their position in life could see that we are not very different from each other?
“Hi, my name is Candi and I struggle with perfectionism, insecurity, anxiety and panic attacks, raising my voice at my kids more often than i should, laziness when it comes to house cleaning, and eating right, amongst other things. ”
There is not a huge chasm between me and the guy next door who struggles with alcohol or marijuana or codependency or rage. We all have a bent towards sin, and we are not required to fix our issues before we can receive Jesus’ gift. His gift that says, “Yeah, I know who you are. I know your ins and outs, and I still want you. I still think you’re amazing. I still see your potential! I still want to use you to make a difference!”
You are that person. We are so very very similar. And the Father of life, the Creator of the vast universe, still wants us!
“And He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my strength is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore most gladly I will rather boast in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.” 2 cor. 12:9
These last few weeks have been rough for my physically and mentally as I’m walking through anxiety and even panic attacks, a place I never thought I’d find myself. But I can say that through the journey He has shown me so many things…about Himself….about me….and oddly enough, about my potential and strengths even though at times all I can see is my weaknesses. It’s in these times of weakness that He pulls me close and reminds me that I am not perfect but He is. And He wants to work through me as I continue to lean into Him for what I lack. And let me clarify that this doesn’t mean I can continue to walk in habitual sin that I absolutely know is wrong. When we come to Him we have to decide to walk away from certain things, but what it does mean is that we can come exactly as we are and He won’t push us away. He will meet us there, and because His love is so great for us… for you…He won’t leave us where we are. Because He knows your potential in Him.
A diamond ring that gets dropped in the mud is still a diamond ring.
So…”Hi, my name is Candi and I struggle with perfectionism, insecurity, anxiety and panic attacks, raising my voice at my kids more often than I should, laziness when it comes to house cleaning, and eating right, amongst other things…But because of His love and redemption, I can also see that I lean towards compassion and mercy. I absolutely love helping people think outside the box, and empathy comes quickly for me when I see someone hurting. I dream of doing big things to combat injustice in this world, and music and worship are my very heartbeat.”
I am not perfect but He is, so I choose to follow Him as I trip and fall and get sidetracked and dirty along the way. Where else could I go?
I would absolutely love for you to add your “Hi, my name is…..” in a comment on the blog so long as after being real, you don’t forget to add your strengths!
If I can get enough of them, how cool would it be to pull them altogether in some format! I have a pretty cool techy hubby that could help with that. 😉
Think of the people it could reach if they saw you being real.